Job and Jen

I've recently been reading the book of Job because Job intrigues me. What intrigues me the most about Job at the beginning of the book is that he's so well rooted in his relationship with God that even though Satan attacked everything he owned and eventually Job himself, he was still going to praise God. The last verse in chapter one says that "In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing." I've been thinking to myself, "would I be like Job if everything I had was taken away from me? Would it be written down that I did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing?" I want to be this way in my life and I was praying for God to show me how to live my life in a continuous state of worship and then tonight happened.

Tonight we had our monthly ministry team meeting. It's where all of the groups from the Department of Ministry teams get together and worship, check on our progress reports, and also hear from various speakers. Our speakers tonight were Linda and Jen Barrick. I don't know if you know their story, but it deeply impacted me. The Barrick Family was involved in a car crash that should have killed them, but He has chosen to give them all life and they're using it to proclaim of the miracle of what happened and continues to happen in their lives. While I was listening to them talk about the many miracles that took place, I noticed that Jen's life showed this continuous state of worship that I have been wanting and through the testimony of her life God showed me a little bit of what it takes to achieve this. It's about forsaking the confidence I have in myself and getting on my knees daily to ask Him to show me what He wants me to see. While I'm on my knees, it's easier to take after the example that Christ set and wash the feet of those around me. The time I start to see life from the perspective of a servant is the time I will see life more the way it was intended for me to.

So Job and Jen have sparked this desire to change the way I'm living. Both were able to praise the Lord through all the junk that happened to them because they chose to surrender themselves before God before adversity hit. Am I willing to daily hit my knees and allow God to be my eyes for the day? Are you? May we grab hold of His vision for our lives and abandon those things that obstruct our sight of this.

Lord, here I am. I'm on my knees.
Change the way I'm living, please.
Here's my life. It's in Your hands.
My hopes. My dreams. My selfish plans.

Shake me. Break me. Take my shame.
Use it all to lift Your Name.
Set my eyes to gaze on You.
May you be pleased in all I do.